I have been thinking about how mothering has felt so different to me this time around. I am not sure if it has more to do with having done it already or because I have a daughter. I know I feel a lot more competent and relaxed this time. Kids go through stages or bumps in the road with feedings, napping and everything else and it is always short lived and works itself out. I also don't have quite as much time to anlyze everything.single.little.thing. I am enjoying it so much this time around- less worry and more living in the moment and loving it.
Having two children has been so much easier than I was warned about and began to expect. Sure, it is more work but it doesn't feel overwhelming or like something I can't handle. Do I have more laundry? YES YES YES! Do I have any free time? Well... yes, but my free time is spent doing the laundry. I was thinking yesterday as I looked around I can't remember a time in my life when I have been happier.
Having a daughter feels very different. Not to compare or make less of mothering a son. They are both unique, wonderful and just different experiences. My response to her cries felt different than with Sam. If I did not respond fast enough she seemed really upset as if her feelings were hurt. She is very sensitive and I began to notice I was very aware of this. She is dainty and sweet and loves to cuddle. She perches herself on my chest like a little koala bear and will fall asleep like that in a second. I wasn't expecting a girl and I am so blessed it can overwhelm me at times. I think about her in 10,20,30 years and want us to have a great relationship like my mother and I have always had. I cannot wait to see the young girl and woman she becomes.
On a lighter note, I have to discuss the clothes. I guess I never really looked at the girl clothes but they have some adorable things. The dresses are beautiful. I have not been able to leave a store without getting her a cute outfit. I am enjoying it more than I ever thought I would.